07/04/2012

Emotionally Unavailable

I'm trying to wrap my mind around this

You only want me when it's suitable to fit your personal needs
But get pissed
When someone else shows interest
There's a void that needs to be filled
But only temporarily
You could save us both the heartache
Then to partake in bartering the ass
For something you’re not willing to give
You are blinded by the things you can see
When you should be focused on what you can't
I've noticed you're a collector of expensive taste
And trying to add to your trophy case
Loving me, was never your intention
But wanting to put your love inside me was my premonition
Your scrambling to fight the feeling
Without even sampling
The one thing you've been in pursuit of
Truth is, I want all of you
But you’re emotionally unavailable
Which makes you intangible?
Walk away
Before your lies will be your downfall
Knowing you will never give me what I need
You love the chase
That is what enthralls you
It's something about me
That makes you think you're ready
But your mind has eclipsed your heart
And you haven't known love since your first heartbreak
Until you release the pain
You will also be emotionally unavailable

02/26/2011
80 Proof



Every waking moment

I yearn for you

Sip after sip turn into shots

Thoughts fade

Just for a little while

As I consume you

My eyes leak flammable liquid

Strike a match and let my burdens flame on

Guilt-free

Only if I was so lucky

Instead guilt fills my emptiness

I miss you when you’re not in me

You give me a high that no one else can

You allow me to change characters

When I see my reflection

I don't even recognize who I have become

Clenching the neck of you

I pour out my sins

You burn so good going down

Mixing into my blood stream

You have always given me your undivided attention

With every private session

So, I kiss you good night

As I fall into a deep coma

Tomorrow I will awake

With you pounding at my head

Telling me how much you love me

I tried to fight you

Even though I said "I'll never touch you again"

I find ways to justify my love

But in my heart you've left a black hole

And it’s getting harder to fill

As long as we continue this love affair

You know I’m not going anywhere

I'll forever be yours

Now that's the truth '80 Proof'